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Please watch this beautiful spoken-word poetry piece by Shane Koyczan about combatting bullying and share it if that's the least you can do.
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This is pretty much going to be a life rant - feel free to de-watch me; I won't take it personally.
Well. I'm writing here as opposed to on Facebook/Twitter/forums to lessen the chances of anyone mentioned seeing such a sob story.
So the girl I've had a mega crush on for way too long (I have confessed and was rejected a few years ago - yes, I'm bad at dropping things) asked me tonight what are friend boundaries. Now if that wasn't awkward enough, she later dropped that she broke up with her boyfriend of 2 years recently.
Was it that long ago that she doesn't remember I have a crush on her? Or did she really believe the lie of that I have no more feelings for her? Or does she know this all and still asks me random and touchy questions to provoke a response (she's not that malicious so I doubt this possiblity)?
Because when she does ask stuff like this... I try to be respond as a friend and not a potential love interest... but it's damn hard. Stuff like "what would my boyfriend like?" and "will his girlfriend mind?" throws me for a loop - how can I help this girl with her social dilemmas while remaining impartial?
The real problem is that I still like her. And instead of turning into someone I have no interest in, she's becoming even more interesting by the day (THE WATERLOO EFFECT). And whenever I masochistically talk to her (it brings up all the good memories of the past which contrast badly with my life today), I feel myself spilling my guts out to this girl about the most random crap; heart fluttering and all that jazz.
Aren't guys supposed to be the literal ones and girls the more thinky type?
TL; DR: Awkward crush makes things even more awkward.
Art news: Working on a digital painting of Riven from League of Legends. FINALLY understanding how to paint in Photoshop. Looking good so far.
Anyhow, the Waterloo effect is getting to me. Should be studying now. Night.
Well. I'm writing here as opposed to on Facebook/Twitter/forums to lessen the chances of anyone mentioned seeing such a sob story.
So the girl I've had a mega crush on for way too long (I have confessed and was rejected a few years ago - yes, I'm bad at dropping things) asked me tonight what are friend boundaries. Now if that wasn't awkward enough, she later dropped that she broke up with her boyfriend of 2 years recently.
Was it that long ago that she doesn't remember I have a crush on her? Or did she really believe the lie of that I have no more feelings for her? Or does she know this all and still asks me random and touchy questions to provoke a response (she's not that malicious so I doubt this possiblity)?
Because when she does ask stuff like this... I try to be respond as a friend and not a potential love interest... but it's damn hard. Stuff like "what would my boyfriend like?" and "will his girlfriend mind?" throws me for a loop - how can I help this girl with her social dilemmas while remaining impartial?
The real problem is that I still like her. And instead of turning into someone I have no interest in, she's becoming even more interesting by the day (THE WATERLOO EFFECT). And whenever I masochistically talk to her (it brings up all the good memories of the past which contrast badly with my life today), I feel myself spilling my guts out to this girl about the most random crap; heart fluttering and all that jazz.
Aren't guys supposed to be the literal ones and girls the more thinky type?
TL; DR: Awkward crush makes things even more awkward.
Art news: Working on a digital painting of Riven from League of Legends. FINALLY understanding how to paint in Photoshop. Looking good so far.
Anyhow, the Waterloo effect is getting to me. Should be studying now. Night.
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dA
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I'm kind of new to dA - thank for the favourites I guess... Also, as you can tell, I'm more of a signature creator and I make them in my spare and free time. As for other stuff, most of the time I do them for competitions or requests.
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Time to share
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I had a lot of random stuff I made just sitting in a file and an empty dA account.. 1+1 =
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